Well.....this just stinks

Yep, here I am still up....bright eyed and bushy tailed and its 3 o'clock in the morning. I have an eye doctor's appointment today and I'm extremely nervous over it. I do not want another shot in the eye!

So, hopefully, I won't have to have one.....but my condition has not improved that much.....although it HAS improved. I just can't predict what's going to happen and that's making me fearful.

And.....another thing. I might as well say it, although I am ashamed to. My 40 year old son once again ignored me on Mother's Day. No card, no phone call....not even a drive-by wave. He only lives a mile and a half away so that's no excuse. I guess it wouldn't bother me so much if I hadn't gone to hell and back raising him. He was/is ADHD and I suspect some bi-polar thrown in for good measure. Back then they didn't have names for that stuff.....he was just known as a kid who was into everything (a la Dennis the Menace) and I received a phone call from the school on a daily basis. Lord give me strength. Well, my daughter and granddaughter showed up on Sunday and we had a lovely day. Thank God for her. She brought dinner, flowers and cards and most of all......Love! My grandson called .... he was unable to come over as he worked 14 hours that day.

So I did get remembered but it still hurts to have one of your children neglect you on those special days. Especially when you don't even know why. I hope none of you ever experience it. No matter how hard you try to protect yourself from it.....it still does hurt.

Update: I DID have to have another shot in my eye (shudder) but the doctor feels that this should be my last one. He says the eye is healing nicely and wants to see me again in 2 months.

Happy Mother's Day

My own Mom passed away over 26 years ago and I still miss her immensely. We were very close. I don't think you ever get over losing your Mom. She will be on my mind more than usual all day today. If I close my eyes and think really hard, I can still smell her perfume.

Motherhood....what a wonderful event in any female's life. You can be assured that your life will never be the same once it has occurred. No matter if you're a duck watching over a flock of 14, or an elephant nourishing your single baby, your first thoughts are the protection and survival of your young. Through teary eyes I read the story of a female stray cat who repeatedly went back into a burning garage and rescued every single one of her eight babies, doing much damage to herself in the process....but her babies survived. She's ok now too and has been taken in by loving people who will see to it she is content for the rest of her days. We've all seen articles about dogs who nurse orphaned kittens or even ones as far-fetched as a tigress nursing little piglets.

What is this mysterious emotion that is so strong....so full of love...so unselfish.....and so deeply ingrained that a mother will risk life and limb for her offspring. There is nothing so vicious as a mother protecting her young. I'm sure it has puzzled mankind since the beginning of time and will continue to do so. I am proud to have been born female so that I could experience this first-hand. So today I wish all my sisters a Happy Mother's Day. Men, you do realize that just being female is all it takes to have that emotion....we do not have to have given birth......its just there and on this special day, I mentally embrace all of you. We are awesome. (note...I do realize there are some bad mothers out there and for them I am truly sorry for their flaws...thank God they are the minority)