Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Mixed emotions.....


about a lot of things. I was told Monday that my part time position was not going to be put into next year's budget. Part of me felt bad that I wasn't considered important enough to be kept....but I realize that these are strange times and so many jobs are being cut. Although I can't begin to imagine that the small amount my job takes out of a budget would make that much difference....I suppose every little bit helps. Since my daughter should be getting her disability starting this month, I am hoping that she will be taken care of that way and my financial help will no longer be needed. If I take care of a couple bills, I can make it on my income if I don't have to help her. I have four months and I think I can pay those bills down so that I can manage....at least that's the plan. I haven't really been able to enjoy my retirement. As soon as I retired my knee went out and I was in a lot of pain....then surgery and by the time that was over I had gone back to work part-time to help my daughter as she had lost her job. So I guess its time that I stopped and enjoyed the roses, so to speak.

My co-worker is going to fight to keep me.....she likes having me there. I've been in this building since 1974 in a different capacity. I am learning more and more about this job and she knows I can be trusted....so we'll see what happens. If I can stay, it will help me pay off some nagging debts....but if I have to leave, I can still make it unless they raise the interest rates even more or raise groceries even more....then its going to be super tight. The important thing I have to remember is that this job came through for me right at the time that my daughter desperately needed help. The timing was right and I know Who I have to thank for that and have thanked a million times. I have faith that things will continue to work out.

I think Fall is upon us. We have had some nights in the low 40's. Today, although nice and sunny, is only 72, yesterday was 70. The leaves are beginning to turn. I'm not ready for this, although I do love Fall....its WINTER that I cannot tolerate any longer. The Farmer's Almanac has predicted that our area is in for bitterly cold temps this winter but not that much snow. I guess I can take the cold....its the snow that just about did me in last year....it just kept coming and coming. So, I'm off to do some earth shattering important things.....like laundry and all the side-chores that go along with doing laundry.

Oh, and you won't believe this one. My great little workhorse computer died. This is the old one that I've had for so many years and recently replaced. My computer guy stopped by to make an adjustment on it so it could send things to the printer in my office and he couldn't get it to come on.....the hard drive wasn't even coming on. This is a VERY bad sign. I panicked at first then realized that I still have the backup of that machine on my external hard drive and so now have been transferring the important stuff onto my new system, like photos and all my word documents. Please....if you haven't made a backup of your machine, DO IT....before its too late. What a nightmare this would have been if I didn't have it. So computer guy took my trusty old machine to see if he could salvage anything. Its been a good worker for me for many years and I feel sad that it has died. Sorry, I'm in just a pitiful mood today....I get like this once in a while....but thankfully it never lasts long. I need to go look at a funny movie, I think. Have a great day.....tomorrow is humpday already!

12 comments:

Moohaa said...

Big hugs friend. I sure hope things work out in your favor.

I am sooo glad to see fall approaching here. Not only is it the end of the horrid heat, but it's my absolute FAVorite time of year!

Jamie said...

You are SO right Charlotte - things will work out the way they need to..and you know - for you, I hope that you get to keep your job, because you like it. However, I wouldn't mind if you didn't. You have worked far too long for the sake of others. I think it would be a blessing if now you could actually take some time off.

Hugs friend. Happy Humpday. :)

WaterLearner said...

It's definitely not the best times with so many companies talking about cutting work force.

I hope that things work out right for you.

Blessings,

Florida Sue said...

If it isn't one thing it's another, right Val? I am sorry that they need to cut your position. It is a link to the outside world, and I know what that feels like when your career just unceremoniously ends. I hope your pain is being held off effectively and that everything is okay in your family. Email me anytime. I am still limping along here in Canada for another week or so.
XOSue

happyone said...

Sounds like whatever happens will be okay for you - that a good attitude to have.
I'm not quite ready for cold weather yet!!

SOUL: said...

i'm sorry it all seems to hit at once doesn't it?
but, at the same time, you do seem to be ready either way.
i hope you are happy with the outcome whichever way it goes... i think you will be.

if you haven't seen a funny movie yet-- you gotta go see "hangover". funniest movie i've seen in i bet a year. stupid... but funneeeeeeeeeee.

hugs charlotte!

Joy Des Jardins said...

You have a beautiful attitude Val...you are ahead of the game already. I truly hope everything turns out well for you...you surely deserve it...God knows you've earned it. Big hugs to you sweetie...Love, Joy

forsythia said...

I agree with Joy. Your attitude towards life keeps me coming back to read more. A day without Val is like a day without orange juice which is like ....well, you get my drift. Thanks for the timely reminder to back up our files. I tend to procrastinate on technical things. I think they're "too hard" and that I can always get around to them "later, when I have more time." Bad plan.

Cheryl said...

You have a good attitude, always. Tomorrow, or today, will be better. When one door closes another opens. Right? Happy Thursday!

Margaret said...

Well, Val, you certainly have had your hands full and things that are annoying and sad, as well~!!
About your job, I am sorry that you might not get the job renewed! That is not fair, in this economy that a part time person cannot feel secure~! I wish for you that your co-worker will be able to make it happen for you~!! And, your old stand by computer biting the dust is horrible~!! And, Val, you are not in a pitiful mood, you just have been dealt a Murphy's Law day~! I wish for you a relaxing and productive weekend...Get some slapstick movies, or get out to a movie, and enjoy your time~!! See you on Tuesday...Come to the Bucket list when you can, love to see you...

Gypsy said...

I know you will be sad to see your job go but maybe it's for the best. You have so much pain to deal with and wouldn't it be great to just sit and read a book if that's what you felt like doing? And wouldn't it be something not to have to go out in all that snow and cold when you don't have to?


Yes, the more I think about it, and if you and your daughter can manage financially, I think this will be wonderful for you Val.


Sorry about your old work horse though. I know how much you loved and relied on that old computer.

ordinaryjanet said...

Hope things work out for you, and for your daughter!

I back up my important files fairly regularly, but it seems that every day I have more stuff I'd hate to lose, so I think I should get into the habit of backing up more often. I'm sure that people think that it won't happen to them, until it does. ;-)